I've been trying not to look at lolita clothes, because I can't afford them if I want a bjd >< But today, I did look. I want to dress that way so badly >< I feel like it really expresses my feelings of wanting to be a little girl forever. When I act like I don't like girly things, it's because I don't like gross 'teenage girl' things, you know? I mean, like make-up and nasty clothes that show too much XP But, I really do love 'little girl' and 'old fashion' girl things.
I told myself it was silly to buy lolita clothes because i wouldn't wear them in public. But, and maybe I've become blind to strage fashion choices being an anime fan and all, they don't look too over the top, some lolita outfits. I mean sure you can over do it, but alot of stuff I would actually wear out in public (in my opinion, it's usually the headdresses the make outfits too odd. I think just the dress itsself is fairly normal). I already wear poofy Hot Topic shirts with long skirts as it is. It's not a huge leap from how I already dress.
So, yeah, I need to try reeeeeealy hard to find a job >< a BJD is still top priority, because I think it'll be more fun than a dress. But I still want both someday. I wish my parents were more into the internet, so I could get the stuff I want most for Christmas :/
As a side note, I love this dress: http://www.closet-child.com/shop/list.php?no=685OP-3560s :3

It's almost a shame I'm going to Anime Next next month. Good bye, money T_T I will try to restrain myself from buying OMG EVERYTHING IN SIGHT but the doujinshi guy and the $5 DVD guy are MUSTS. I hope they're both there, especially the dvd guy. I'm making a list of were i'm at in all my partially collected series just for that.

Edit:
http://oofuri.fatal-fabrication.net/
Must have. (wut no Rio/Junta? ): I am saddened)

At Jess's today, I just sort of laid down on the sidewalk in front of her house (then she did too XD). I forgot how nice it is to lay outside on a nice day... (it was cloudy and cool-ish, but not cold. Ah, perfect weather.)

( Vladimir Tod 2 spoilers! )

Now for some spoiler-free talk. First off: I wish my mom was like Heather Brewer T_T She sounds like the coolest mom in the entire world on her blog.
Okay, back to the book. It's sickening how much Vlad talks about Meredith! I'm starting to hate her just because he talks about her in a love-sick haze at least once a chapter. The way he describes her so lovingly, it's really sickening. And it sounds like she dresses like a pink nightmare. I swear I think HP was the only book series where I love the main pairing -_- My hate of Meredith is making me like Vlad/Henry just out of spite. That and vampire/slave luv! X3 The part where Vlad was recovering and the medical blood wasn't enough and Henry was like 'Drink my blood!'...Kyaaaaaa! XD (Vlad refused, though ): Come on, Vlad it's not like you hadn't done it before :p)

I can't see why these books aren't more popular. They're very Darren Shan ripoff-ish in places. I really think DS fans, need to try this series. It also has a good 'parents' generation' back story, very HP-ish ^^ Tomas and Otis remind me of James and Sirius in their young days. Back to the DS-ness, Elysia reminds me a whole lot of Vampire Mountain, and the prophesied vampire who will destroy mankind thing is very DS too. Um yeah.

Since today was my frst day of break, I wanted to draw my Trinity Blood doujinshi, but it's too depressing...my art skills. I mean, it's not as bad as our Outlaw Star book, but it's still really bad. I couldn't work on it.
When I was little, I wanted to be an author and an illustrator. I drew everyday as a little kid. I knew I was bad when I was little, but I knew you were supposed to be bad as a kid, so I kept trying. I think I must have some sort of mental deficiency when it comes to drawing. when I look at a manga, to pick apart the drawing to see how it' done, it's like... You know when you put DDR on Challenge? There's so many arrows, you can't tell which to hit when and everything seems all scrambled and impossible. That's what art looks like to me. A collection of lines all tangled together. I can't make sense of them enough to draw my own. I admit, I have progressed a little, but I know that it's impossible for me to reach any sort of decent level. When really great artists show their old 'bad' work, it's always way better than mine. Drawing can't come from practice, you have to be good to start. Only then can you be better. All I want to do is draw doujinshi to share what I love with other people who love the same thing... It just hurts so much to be creative and keep it bottled up, with no outlet. Alot of artists are like 'Ohnoes, I can't think of a pose or a backgroud! lol' . I have so many pictures in my head all the time. If only there was a way to share them...

Does anyone know a truly bad (bad as me) anime-style artist, who got better? It would help.

Little edit: I've been trying to copy artists with simpler styles, most notably Yuki Kiriga, but also Hajime Ueda. They make their art look so simple and easy. Why is it so hard to copy? I don't get it. Anybody should be able to draw like HajiUe (my name for him XD)

DONE! I'm finished for this semester! Art final today was nice. We presented our midterm research, but it was very relaxed and fun. I had cake and brownies and pepsi :3 (there was Mexican stuff too, but the very smell of Mexican makes me feel like bleh). Like a party...but with learning ^_^ That also marks the first time of the semester a powerpoint has worked for me at this school (darn their ancient technology!)

Pokemon Stadium is haaaaaaaaaaard :( Now I know why I never finished it. But you'd think I'd be a better gamer than when I was 12 -_- I swear, I never improve at anything... I am 'The Girl Stuck in Time'. Yes.
The Red version I have attached to it has even been both 'Missingno hacked' (to multiply items, including most TMs, so all my Pokemon have the strongest moves possible) and Game Sharked. I still can't win. I hate being such a loser at everything.

Monochrome Factor really is better than the manga. I just watched ep. 3. I can't help but think the added BL helps a bit XD lol. No, not really. But somehow, the whole thing is just way more interesting. It's still cliche, but not jarringly, off-puttingly so, like the manga. I can't really explain it.
This has to be one of the only anime where I want to kill all the female characters, though! Both Mayu and Aya, I cringe when they show up. Oooo, I hate them.
Oh, who was that kid at the arcade? I like him ~_^ He blushed at Akira! XD Akira/arcade kid=OTP.

Vampire Knight anime:
Also better than the manga! Somehow, seeing it all in color with voices brings it to life (such a shame there was never a MeruPuri anime now!). I was on the fence between Zero/Yuuki and Kaname/Yuuki with the manga, but now with the anime hands down it's gotta be...Kaname/Yuuki! *shot ded* Zero is just the type of boy I hate. He's giving me real Kyou vibes XP Kaname's voice is so... relaxing? Calming? I dunno, but he's more the type is I like, so as usual I want to live through the herione, so I want her to pick my choice as always XD Haha.

I tried to watch Suteki Tantei Labyrinth today (it sounds like such a Matantei Loki Ragnarök rip-off that it just might be good! XD), but since it doesn't agree with the DVD player, I tried it on the laptop, now not only does the battery not hold a charge, it doesn't recognize the power cord anymore! ZETSUBOUSHITA!! Built-in obsolescence has left me in despair!

Haha. Reborn is so popular, that I'm starting to know the character's b-days without even reading it x_x (it's Hibari's birthday today, incase you cared). It's so popular, that I'm afraid to read it since popular thing don't agree with me.

Philosophy fun fact: Our preferences were predetermined at the beginning of time. Therefore, there is no free will. you only like what you like because your genes have programmed you to. So, it's not my fault I'm so weird ^^

Today was my last Philosophy... I think I'll miss it. The professor said that our brains would hurt taking the class, but once we were done 'argument mapping' That did cause pain), my brain felt very comfortable because i had pondered most of these ideas myself. It's good to know other people think of these things too.

I made a new DA: http://s0raryuu.deviantart.com/ The old one just wasn't me, ya know? QUESTION: Would you like me to keep posting art on LJ, or just on my DA? The stuff on there right now is all stuff I've posted here. Anyway, those with a DA, add me and I'll add you back ^^

New LJ layout too. I didn't want a new layout but I was like OMG baby elephants *changes* However...Now my 'Who Killed Cock Robin?' sounds out of place with baby elephants :/ I should have a bird layout.
Ya know, i'm dying to do a murder mystery comic based on Who Killed Cock Robin.

I decided I need to complete my collection of Game Cube games that I want, before I can't (darn this built in obsolescence! all games are essentially limited editions. very frustrating. I like being able to choose when to buy things or not). List for my own purposes:
Fire Emblem
Baten Kaitos: Origins
Pokemon Colesium (maybe)

If you would allow me to go back to being 12 years old again, This Pokemon site: http://www.trsrockin.com managed to fascinate me for hours yesterday. (the site has lots of other stuff too, though!). when i was young playing Red, the Missingno glitch creeped me out. I didn't understand how glitches are created, so I thought it was very spooky that something the developers didn't intend to be in the game found it's way in there. I think I honestly thought it was like a .hack sort of thing where the game takes off on it's own and creates new features! lol. So, I was fascinated to learn how the glitch came about. BTW, I was quite found of my Missingno and had him as a big part of my team ^^
Oh, is it really true that the save battery goes bad in GB games after a number of years? D: I've been playing Game Boy since Pocket (the black and white one!), so I fear for my game collection now T_T

Someone...Please stop me from having a crush on Mitsuki Saiga http://blog.animate.tv/saiga/index.php?itemid=4859 orz Not only does she sound like a cute boy, so looks like a boy too >< After Akira Ishida, I think she is the seiyuu 2nd most able to make me fall in love with her characters (Wolfram, Robert, Makubex... I know there's more but I'm sleepy)

What is it with authors in BL anime? I mean, it's such a common theme for someone to be an author in a BL. Gravitation, Junjou, and I tried Kirepapa out of curiousity (it was so insanely cheesy, I thought the whole show was a joke at first, btw)...another author! lol. You know how there's The Laws of Anime http://www.abcb.com/laws/ ? Someone needs to make a laws of BL (unless there already is one). Rule 1: Someone's an author.
Speaking of Laws of Anime, that list is very funny if you're a fan from the 90s (or just like alot of 90s anime), but someone really needs to make a more modern list. I mean, if an anime laws list doesn't state 'Every anime must have at least one hotsprings trip', it's just not a through list.

Why do I keep picture Otis in Vladimir Tod as Inumaru from Law of Ueki? Seriously, I can't picture him any other way. Stop it, brain.

I'm going ti try my hardest to actually reply comments today!

the ☂APRIL☂ showers bring ✿MAY✿ flowers meme
I'm on page 9 *hint hint*
If you do one for me, I'll do something for you!

Homework:
1. Diorama (I keep spelling that as 'diarama', as in the 'heal entire party' move in the MegaTen games XD Too much P3) for Thearte showing my 'director's vision' for The Odd Couple
2. Ukiyo-e prestation for art (OMG must find my yukata!)
3. Extra credit Thearte paper
4. Philosophy final studying.
5. Hang self
5. Draw Kaworu/Shinji for jenniferplauge (I am working on it! ^_^)

Though, on a happier note, Thursday's my last day ^^

Yosh! Vladimir Todd 2 getto! I was so mad because i thought they didn't have it, because it wasn't next to book 1. But it turns out it was misshelved in the other YA section -_- Got the only copy too.
The big question is... Do I put down Nightrunner 2 to read it? D: (probably will. The Nightrunner books are like over 500 pages. It's hard for me to read the whole thing continuously ^^;)
Oh yeah, for people that are into BL: The Nightrunner series is a series of American BL novels about spies in a fantasy world ^^ Good stuff. The author has an LJ: otterdance

Now that I have Vlad 2, I have to wait until August for the next novel i want to buy (Keys to the Kingdom 6). For someone who reads alot, I actually enjoy so few books :/ Oh well. Leaves more manga money (I'll never get a BJD until I get a job, it seems. I just can't not buy manga)
Edit: Okay. Well, Artemis Fowl 6 comes out in July...but I just don't like it anymore T_T I only liked 1-3. (Like Darren Shan, I only like the first bunch and HP I only like 1-5... that's why I prefer single novels to series :/)

I think I'll wear my Hatsune Miku shirt to Comic Day tomorrow. That should be sufficiently geeky ^_^

Tomorrow is Free Comic Book day! So, get your butt to your local comic store! ^_^

http://www.freecomicbookday.com

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Some one stop me from watching Vocaloid videos on Youtube orz I swear, Youtube is like potato chips. You know how you can't eat just one? orz
I think Kaito's my favorite Vocaloid. His voice is so cute.

We finished Stage Beauty in class today.... The part where the girl asks the guy (the one who used to play female roles) 'What do men do... with other men?'. It killed me ^^;;;That movie managed to surprise/shock me many times. I guess I don't watch enough R rated movies ^^;;; (not sure if that's a good or bad thing). Here's that scene:
http://ca.youtube.com/watch?v=rvQK1u02P34
Linking it instead of embedding...because the guy and girl proceed to...do stuff >_>

I felt that the pairing of those two was very shoujo manga-ish...in that they hated eachother and ofcourse hate=true love -_- Yuck. Also, I'm not sure just how she managed to turn him straight :/

Really nice music video (almost typed AMV heh):


and the trailer:



( Fashion meme part 2 )

It's only 64 in the house x_X if you don't hear from me again, it's because I've turned to ice.

Edit: adffgjdjkjkukdg how could I forget that Vladimir Tod 2 came out on the 17th!? Someone, drive a wooden stake through my heart now. Okay, Borders on Friday (I teach Kaylan Japanese tomorrow, which, while keeping me busy, funds the book-buying)

Op for Kaiba. It's really pretty ^^

Go out and watch it! It's one of the best things to happen to anime in like forever.

Junjo Romantica op, because it's fun:

I want the Mp3!
The bear's name is Suzuki-san XD So cute. The one guy Usagi-san is like 28 and has a room full of toys and stuffed animals.
It's a really cute BL anime. It's really funny too. You know it takes alot to make me laugh (seriously, I'm so serious that I've had to train myself to laugh when I hear a joke. I do it automatically when I can tell something's supposed to be funny now. It's kinda scary o_o), but during the 2 eps that are out, I laughed at least 3 times! XD Good stuff.
I could tell right away that Misaki-kun is Sakurai! He's using his Yuuri voice X3 I love how he has the 2 voice modes: The manly man voice for Alzeid (HaYuugi), Shito (Zombie Loan) and Haruka (Tactics), and the boyish voice for Yuuri (KKM) and Misaki. Talented!! I'm glad that that plagiarism issue seems to be cleared up and he's been working again ^^ He worried everyone!!
Studio Deen. I knew it was them when I watched the ed. because it had their trademark ep. recap in it. Oh, Deen, you're so lazy, but I love you all the same. Seriously, I've noticed for a while that most of the anime I enjoy are Deen ^^;;;
What I didn't like was that their obviously rushing things. The 1st ep was such a whirlwind, I kept getting confusing.
Well, I hope Junjou can be as popular in America as Gravitation. I think Gravi fans would really like it.

The ed, cause it has duckies! And stuff! lol (I'm in a silly mood ^^;)


I think those are the only new season anime I've watched so far. I'm still waiting on Soul Eater, but I'm afraid that it might be too much style, no substance :/

I started to watch live action Zettai Kareshi out of curiousity. It's really different. Riiko is an office lady or something O_o Weird.

I have all the picks for Jess's request for the fashion meme now. Just need to transfer, resize, upload.

Even though I've only seen one episode, Kaiba (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kaiba) has restored my faith in anime a bit. It's just so wonderfully bizzare! This is what I got into anime for. You gotta love Japan. When they do weird, they go all out. On second thought, the plot is really generic, but it's the way they pull the whole thing off that's so cool.
Here's John's review of it, cause he's awesome (seriously, I want to grow up to be him...only not a guy ^^;;): http://www.animenation.net/blog/2008/04/17/ask-john-why-is-kaiba-being-overlooked/#more-12482
I love the hole in Kaiba's chest. I said to myself 'He's a Hollow!' XD I love when the freaky little creature puts the toy bird in there X3 I love that little creature so much. I hope it shows up again.
Paku Romi is awesome as Popo ♥ I could so tell it was her XD (thought it was Mitsuki Saiga for a few minutes first, though ><)

!! The new Eva movie is subbed!! I'll have to watch this weekend! XD

We're watching Stage Beauty in Theatre. It's very R rated, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't enjoying it. It's about the transtion time in English theatre when women began to play female parts (it's like a 100 years after Morality Play, maybe?). It's mainly about a man who was famous for playing women dealing with being out of the job. There's cross-dressing (duh) and yaoi XD When the guys kissed one girl in class yelled 'Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwww!' (there was a general outbreak of all kinds of sounds, but I heard her loudest ^^;). lol I nearly clapped, but settled for a somewhat evil grin instead XD The romance was not to last, though so don't watch the movie for that ^^;; Um yeah. It's an interesting movie.

Now that Philosophy paper is over, I now have to work on myaking a diarama for Theatre about one of the plays we read. He said it doesn't have to be an art project, but I want to draw the whole thing anyway >< Due May 5. I shall be busy.

I iz spamming j00

The sad part is, I might not even be done posting for the day ^^;;

( More pics from CPAC )
I saw that Mom had recorded some of panel. i looked at it today, and it was only the Magical Miracle part -_- that was the one did last so I was very tired and not making sense. Also, that was one of the ones Jess was supposed to talk about, so I had to guess/make up alot of stuff -_- Yay, Mom. Now I have nothing for You Tube -_-

( Philosophy essay on character deaths )





I'm horribly embarrassed by this and only posted it at Jess's request. I'm a 'writer' who can't even write. -_-

http://community.livejournal.com/sono_mukou/867.html

Since I know none of you bother to check sono_mukou since you don't care about good manga -_-

Also, if you don't check m_orality_p_lay (Some of you do, since you like good books ^^), I've been posting art there too.

About the Virid fanart, does my art look better scanned larger like that, or smaller like my Morality Play stuff?

Just had a heart attack because Mom turned on the DVD player and Junjo Romantica started playing orz Be more careful, Sora. (I ran in to stop it when I heard Japanese XD The last thing I need is 'why are those those guys so close together, honey?')

Maybe it's because I wasn't paying attention, but Princess was an AWFUL movie. They didn't explain anything. Yay for wasting the whole night -_-

Still working on Jess's request for the meme. Tomorrow...